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Title: Closing Doors
Pairing: Sheppard/McKay UST
Rating: R for language
Wordcount: 866
Spoilers: 5x16 Brain Storm
Categories: pre-slash
Summary: Opportunity waits for no man.
A/N: Because Brain Storm pissed me off so very badly.


Closing Doors

by esteefee



Rodney beamed down from the Daedalus feeling pretty chipper. He'd spent three weeks on-board with Keller—Jennifer, he reminded himself—and even if they weren't yet entirely comfortable with each other in their new capacity as "an item," they definitely were on the road to fruition. It was just a matter of time, just a matter of time.

So he told himself as he turned away from the gate, then startled when he saw Sheppard, who was standing there with his arms crossed and a mocking lift to his eyebrow.

And something dark in his eyes that Rodney absolutely refused to identify.

"Welcome back." There was hardly any welcome in John's voice. "Where's Keller?"

"Oh, she's still up there supervising the transfer of medical supplies." Rodney felt tension ratchet in his shoulders, and he forced them into a shrug. "She'll be down soon."

"Peachy. You need help with any of that stuff?" John waved at the boxes that were appearing on the platform beside Rodney.

"No, I'll round up some of my minions. All of this is for the labs."

"I'll walk with you," Sheppard said, still in that clipped tone that was raising the hairs on the back of Rodney's neck. The last time he'd heard Sheppard sound like that was shortly after Rodney had destroyed a good portion of a solar system and, not incidentally, almost turned them both into plasma.

"So, how was your trip?" Sheppard asked breezily.

"It was fantastic. Wonderful, really."

"Really."

"In fact, yes." Rodney wasn't going to be bullied. "We flew in a private jet, and I saved hundreds of lives, even if I didn't get credit for it. I even saved Kell—Jennifer's life. She was very grateful."

"Sounds like a hell of a vacation."

Rodney stopped in front of the transporter, thinking Sheppard would break off, but he just waited patiently, so Rodney turned and stepped in, Sheppard behind him.

The doors closed, and Rodney reached for the screen, only to have Sheppard edge him away from the panel.

"What are you doing?"

John tapped the corner of the screen, locking the unit down. "Just wanted to have a moment to welcome you back properly."

"Well, I feel quite welcome, thank you. Now, if you wouldn't mind..."

"I mind," Sheppard said, too quietly. He...loomed, there was no other word for it, and Rodney felt himself leaning back. The transporter suddenly felt very confining.

"So—you and Keller."

"Yes. Yes, me and Jennifer. We're together," Rodney said. Some of the glow was gone from the words. Sheppard didn't look proud, or happy for Rodney. In fact, he looked—Rodney couldn't put his finger on the expression, but it wouldn't have been out of place if Sheppard had been facing a Wraith queen.

"I just can't wrap my head around that, Rodney. Let me tell you why—"

"Oh, by all means—enlighten me," Rodney said, his voice shaking with indignation. "Because I like her. I like her very much."

Sheppard stared at him as if he could laser right through into Rodney's brain. "Oh, you like her." He smiled suddenly, a fake, plasticky smile. "That's a recipe for happiness right there. And the way she acts toward you—like she's your big sister or something—must make it even cozier. It's all in the family, I guess."

Rodney was so indignant he couldn't even stammer out a rebuttal. But Sheppard wasn't waiting for him, anyway; he was already leaning in to whisper mockingly, "Is that what it feels like when you kiss her, Rodney? Like kissing your sister?"

Rodney shoved with one shoulder, ramming Sheppard up against the wall to give himself some space. And then he punched Sheppard right in his mocking little mouth.

Sheppard's head snapped back, but then he grinned. There was blood in his teeth. "Guess that's a 'yes'."

"Fuck you."

There went that damned eyebrow again. "Oh, I don't think so. I don't think you could handle the excitement. I'm not very 'nice,' after all."

"No, you're really not," Rodney said. God, why wouldn't his voice stop shaking?

Sheppard pushed closer, and Rodney's hands came up automatically to keep him back. Sheppard leaned in until they rested against his chest, and he said, suddenly serious, "I'll tell you what I am, though, Rodney. I'm a man."

"A very annoying one, at present."

"Always, I hope." Sheppard's chest was firm and warm under his T-shirt. His little nipples were hard against Rodney's palms.

"I'd tell you what else I am," Sheppard whispered, "but that's against the damned rules."

But he didn't need to say it. He'd never needed to say it—Rodney didn't want him to. Because that wasn't—he couldn't—

"What's the matter?" The mocking note was back. Sheppard's eyes were so dark, so intent.

"No—nothing." Rodney held his breath, ignoring the throb in his groin that put the lie to everything.

"All right," Sheppard said, backing off suddenly. "I'll take your word for it." He reached out to unlock the panel.

"Wait, John—"

"I have been, Rodney," Sheppard said, sounding tired, "and I'm done with that."

The light flashed, and the doors opened.

"I'll be seeing you," he said, not looking at Rodney before stepping out.

Rodney tried to follow, but the doors had already closed.



End.

ETA: The next story in this series is Sheppard/Dex: Good Chance.



Comments

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[info]velocitygrass wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 10:54 am (UTC)
Oh, ouch.

I'll pretend that Rodney will stop lying to himself and now that Sheppard has actually said and done something, will do something in return.

I do feel John's anger and hurt. *sighs*
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 11:01 am (UTC)
I promise! He's very close!

And I am *very* sorry. It was just...in the ep, I swear you couldn't measure the chemistry b/w Rodney and Keller with, like, an atomic caliper. She was sitting there in this boob-pushing *gown* and he didn't even look at her *once*.

Rodney. Those are *breasts*. You don't like them. You like lanky boys and their messy boy parts!
[info]gaffsie wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 11:01 am (UTC)
I... I actually want something like that go down. It would beat watching John be pining and miserable for the rest of the season at least.

"I just can't wrap my head around that, Rodney. Let tell you why—"

Psst, I think you forgot a 'me' there
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 11:05 am (UTC)
Argh pining! I'm off to write a Sheppard/Ronon where they can both commiserate in their pissed-offedness. By which, of course, I mean commiserate sexually. :o

Thanks much for the typo pointer. Hate typos, hate 'em!
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[info]cookiemom6067 wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 11:29 am (UTC)
Please, Rodney - stay away from these women that want to change you, and don't understand you!
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 11:33 am (UTC)
I know! Be humble. As if.

John seems to love Rodney just the way he is.
[info]helenkacan wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 11:36 am (UTC)
Permission to join your pissed-off club, please?

Thank you for your grasp of adult concepts (of which TPTB have absolutely NO idea). For example,
"... I even saved Kell—Jennifer's life. She was very grateful."
I commented on that last night to a reviewer because it was so loathesome to imply that the grateful damsel in distress ALWAYS rewards the hero. With sex, of course. UGH.

And this just reminds me of the hurt on John's face from Tracker, not to forget Rodney's smug indifference:
"Wait, John—"

"I have been, Rodney," Sheppard said, sounding tired, "and I'm done with that."
What was unexpected (and, frankly, inspired) was your John slotting Keller into the role of Rodney's sister and, wow, wouldn't Jeannie be thrilled that Rodney was marrying a woman who would be able to continue the job of bringing Rodney down to the level of an ordinary man. Oh, it would be all so genteel but, in the end, I could very much see Rodney's spark lost as he worked in that same The Last Man community college, because it gave him regular hours so he could be home for dinner every night because she insisted on it.

I don't know if you've already thought of this, but my future fics will all be set post the McKeller divorce. Yes, they got together. Yes, it was all a big mistake. Now could we please get back to the only real relationship Rodney has had for more than four years?

Sorry for getting so talky, but that's my anger and irritation venting. Once again, thank you for your slice of realism.
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 11:48 am (UTC)
I ::heart:: you! With big, loopy, goofy curlicues. Because, yes, that damsel thing annoyed the ever-living fuck out of me. As well as her maternalistic attempts at behavior modification. And I think all the writers must have had overbearing, controlling mothers, because Jeannie's constant attempts to bring Rodney down about fifty pegs does the same thing.

You're spot on about the community college thing, too--I could only bear to wink at the screen during the hospital scene where on her freakin' death-bed Keller uses her dying as a trump card to get Rodney to give up his oh-so-foolish dreams/obsession.

and yes! John's little hesitation in Tracker--"You're going off-world with...Keller. On your day off." When obviously John and Rodney have a long-standing tradition of hanging out together and doing wacky things on their days off.

my future fics will all be set post the McKeller divorce

Bless you. There's this big giant wall in my head right now just thinking of my WIP McShep stories, and I think you have healed me.

Thank you for the terrific note.
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[info]hestia_lacey wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 12:25 pm (UTC)
Hurty, but YES at the same time.
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 09:06 pm (UTC)
Thank you. I so needed the ouch.
[info]sweeneybird wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 12:54 pm (UTC)
ouch - that hurt Well done - painful and yet very much in character.
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 09:09 pm (UTC)
Hey, thanks. ::hands you bandaid::
[info]kathgrr wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 03:35 pm (UTC)
ouch.. poor John. The hurt and anger came across so well with just the right touch of sheppardness.
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 09:10 pm (UTC)
::pats his wubbie head:: Thanks, kathgrr.
[info]kensieg wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 04:46 pm (UTC)
I don't know if John would take Rodney back after he marries Keller. Rodney's dreams are crushed and then he get divorced. I see him as a bitter vengeful old man with nothing left. Not even science because he is only mediocre now.
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 09:10 pm (UTC)
Yeah, I know. This is so hard to see around.
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[info]beachlass wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 06:47 pm (UTC)
This is hard. And lovely.
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 09:11 pm (UTC)
Thank you much!
[info]facetofcathy wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 10:08 pm (UTC)
Ooooh. Very, very nice, in a very not nice way.

The dark side of the we have this thing, we both know it, we just don't mention it.

Also did you say up there that you're writing John/Ronon commiseration? Waits patiently.
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 24th, 2008 04:25 am (UTC)
I am! I'm three pages in. Poor Ronon has altitude sickness and John is taking care of him. mmm.

thanks for the encouragement!
[info]insanity__inc wrote:
Nov. 23rd, 2008 11:41 pm (UTC)
Thank you for writing this. I skipped that ep almost completely. I say almost because I've been off with the flu and in my delerium caught the last five minutes while waiting for Sanctuary.

I don't know if it was the chicken soup or Rodney and Keller kissing that had me upchucking in to my trashcan.

I'm really tired of the McKeller show. Can we go back to the McShep or Team eps?

I guess this is an upside to only three eps left. There's only so much Keller they can cram into them.
[info]kensieg wrote:
Nov. 24th, 2008 12:07 am (UTC)
I love your icon!
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[info]tiddletat666 wrote:
Nov. 24th, 2008 12:16 am (UTC)
One of the many memebers of the "this episode pissed me off" group.

Can't wait for more, particularly the post-McKeller divorce.

Hey maybe it can be an annulment :D After Rodney's little run-in with John, he just can't get it...

So the not very nice John, is gonna have to show Rodney, that he's a man's man, and he gonna enjoy it.... mmmm off to dream
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 24th, 2008 04:27 am (UTC)
Welcome to the club. we need a pin!

Oh, John is going to show him what manlove is all about. Indeed.
[info]badwolf36 wrote:
Nov. 24th, 2008 01:24 am (UTC)
Definitely like a sister. She keeps trying to change him and make him act better, just like Jeannie. And yet, John never does. Thank you for this scene, painful as it was.
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 24th, 2008 04:28 am (UTC)
John *never* does. He just snarks and Rodney snarks and it is twoo wuv. ::sad sigh::

Thanks, badwolf.
[info]semielliptical wrote:
Nov. 24th, 2008 03:16 am (UTC)
Oh, wow, this is painful but satisfying at the same time. I love the way you have John confront Rodney, that he doesn't let Rodney just walk away and pretend he doesn't know what could have been.
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 24th, 2008 04:29 am (UTC)
Nice, thank you. Your icon is just perfect.
[info]d_odyssey wrote:
Nov. 24th, 2008 03:36 am (UTC)
Echoing the comments painful, but go John. I hate the thought of John suffering and alone while Rodney is off with his head up his arse, totally oblivious. Poor John, it just breaks my heart. I like this take, that John is fed up and not taking it anymore and showing Rodney what he missed. I shudder at the thought of any kind of marriage to Keller. Ugh! Just no. No chemistry, no attraction, no screen presence at all. Wise up Rodney! Nice job, I look forward to fics where John is happy and appreciated.
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 24th, 2008 04:32 am (UTC)
Yeah, I so hate the thought of John out in the cold. ::wahs::

Ugh! Just no. No chemistry, no attraction, no screen presence at all.

Oh, man. No kidding. Just...*nothing*. Incest, and not even the good kind.

Thanks for the great note.
[info]likeaglass wrote:
Nov. 24th, 2008 04:47 am (UTC)
Oh man, that hurt so good.

So then, after Rodney stares at the closed doors of the transporter thinking about what John said until someone happens along and finds him, he goes off to John's quarters and pushes *him* up against the wall and *deliberately* feels up his nipples, yes? Andthentheyhavesex, the end.

Also, this little scene you wrote? Is now canon for me. It might actually make the episode bearable, which, uh, wow. That's a feat, I'm telling you.
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 24th, 2008 04:54 am (UTC)
Andthentheyhavesex, the end.

It's the true story!

It might actually make the episode bearable

Oh, and that is a severe compliment, and I thank you, because that ep pushed so many squick buttons I had to mop afterward.

[info]shaddyr wrote:
Nov. 24th, 2008 08:30 am (UTC)
I was recently whining about this episode on my LJ as well. I am glad to see that I was not the only one who was unhappy with it.

AAMOF, I actually couldn't finish watching it. It was grating on me that badly.

Thanks for this. Painful. Gah. SMARTEN UP RODNEY! DAMMIT!
[info]esteefee wrote:
Nov. 24th, 2008 09:17 am (UTC)
Then you spared yourself the horrified, nausea-inducing, mealy-mouthed kissing at the end. I swear, Rodney would kiss John MUCH BETTER. His lips wouldn't just lie there like...fish lips!

Thanks for this. Painful. Gah. SMARTEN UP RODNEY! DAMMIT!

Thank you so.
[info]terribilita wrote:
Nov. 25th, 2008 06:22 am (UTC)
You know, as much as it hurts, this is exactly what I wanted after this episode, even more than the yay-Rodney-forgets-Keller-and-realizes-his-epic-love-for-John!fic. Yes, I want the happy ending but Brain Storm made me so damn mad for John. Hmm, I'd really love to see a combination of this fic and the happy fic, actually. But yeah, this was great. Cathartic even. *sigh*
[info]esteefee wrote:
Dec. 4th, 2008 09:12 pm (UTC)
Eee! Thanks so much. ::commiserates with you::

I think I'll wait to see what happens before writing a follow-up. ::pets John::
[info]winter_elf wrote:
Dec. 1st, 2008 02:15 am (UTC)
*ouch* but yea, John, you need to stop just letting things happen and stand up for yourself. Thanks for showing us an angry John.

As for McKeller...... My wish for the future we're stuck with is that yea, he goes out with her for a while, but catches a clue before any actual exchange of vows with her *shudder*
[info]esteefee wrote:
Dec. 4th, 2008 09:13 pm (UTC)
you need to stop just letting things happen and stand up for yourself.

Yes! He's so damned passive unless guns are involved.

[info]sabine_26 wrote:
Dec. 15th, 2008 04:29 am (UTC)
Heh, I'm so mean. I read Caught Inside first, and as happy as John+Ronon makes me, I'm even happier when you add in Rodney finally figuring out what he's going to be missing.

And I really like how John is completely unapologetic about who he is. John has never apologized for any other aspect of his personality, so why should his sexuality be any different. Good for you, John.
[info]esteefee wrote:
Dec. 15th, 2008 08:41 am (UTC)
It gave me a great deal of satisfaction writing it, I have to admit. :)

And you are dead-on about John.
[info]jennilee wrote:
Dec. 16th, 2008 02:47 am (UTC)
I still haven't watched Brain Storm (except for the opening with John and Ronon), but maybe I will now. Just knowing that I can come back after and read this again helps a little.

Slash goggles or not, it's clear John's not happy with them being a couple. I really want him to say something. Confrontation, please! And if TIIC take notes from your fic that'll be all right with me.
[info]esteefee wrote:
Dec. 20th, 2008 01:31 am (UTC)
oh, don't watch B.S. (nice acronym for the ep) unless you really want your stomach turned.

thank you for the note, which made me giggle.
[info]jendavis wrote:
Apr. 2nd, 2009 02:56 pm (UTC)
Nice!

I like the fact that John actually confronts Rodney about the situation, Very up front and to the point.
[info]esteefee wrote:
Apr. 3rd, 2009 04:23 am (UTC)
I don't think I've read a lot of stories where Rodney is portrayed at being too tied to convention, but that's what struck me when I saw Brain Storm, so I had to write this.

Thanks so much for the note!
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